I am sure you have heard the quote, “ the only person standing in your way is you.” YUP I CAN RELATE.
I have a goal of becoming the best version of myself- in all areas of my life.
This comes with A LOT of learning, reflection, and calling myself out when needed.
This post is my personal reminder to not just talk and think about what I want to do but START DOING IT.
I am prone to giving myself tough love when it comes to my work. I identify as being a creative person and I get overwhelmed with my ideas- all my ideas that I think are such GREAT IDEAS, I will think and think and think about them and then I will watch 8 episodes of The Vampire Diaries and at the end of the day I have done nothing.
I am all for “rest is productive” and self-care, but I have been at the point of being paralyzed by my thoughts– I will make one step in the right direction and stay there standing staring into nothingness.
I am learning- and today I am starting here.
Momentary Comfort vs Long Term Reward
I know what I have to do and I know that it makes me feel good- and yet I don’t do it, instead, I distract myself out of it or convince myself that looking through every picture on my camera roll is a better use of my time (NOT). Then comes being in this constant loop of disappointment in myself and guilt.
Throughout this process, I realized I was participating in self-sabotage disguised as self-love.
I thought self-love was giving myself an extra hour of sleep because sleep is important (which it is). Staying in bed sounds great but it’s only bringing me momentary comfort. But that extra hour of sleep was not all that restful because it was full of telling myself “5 more minutes,” as I continuously hit snooze, not rest, just guilt for not wanting to get out of bed.
While I KNOW that during that “extra hour,” I could have given myself the time to get up to watch the sunrise and read 1 chapter of my book and practice yoga and make myself my morning smoothie and give myself the time I deserve in the morning to not be in a rush for work.
I know that this would bring me much more peace than fighting with my alarm.
Building habits like waking up early and starting my day off in the present moment creates a long-term reward.
So why do we ignore that which makes us feel our best?
Why do we distract ourselves from doing those things that will get us ahead in our career, personal development, fitness journey, etc.?
Procrastination= Self Sabotage
Fear feeds procrastination. FEAR FEEDS PROCRASTINATION.
I’m beginning to realize your subconscious is responsible for A LOT more than we give it credit for.
Could it be possible that you keep putting off that thing that you need to do because you know that it can make you successful?
That it can help you reach your desired outcome?
Because if you do it, and do it consistently– you will see the results you are looking for.
It’s EASIER to:
Stay in bed everyday, and still complain that you’re always tired and that there’s not enough hours in the day
Watch Netflix for hours instead of reading a book or working out
Go get fast food instead of cooking a meal at home
Tell yourself you will do it when you have that thing you feel like you NEED
It’s easy to procrastinate away your life and make yourself feel like a victim.
I have participated in ALL of these points above.
When I lived with my parents, I kept telling myself “WHEN I have my apartment THEN I will…”
I manifested my apartment word for word, I visualized my mornings, I felt the feeling of doing all that “I was not able to do,” because I didn’t have my own space.
The person you want to become requires a new version of you, the version of you that doesn’t make excuses is able to stop procrastinating.
What you can do to STOP PROCRASTINATING & SELF SABOTAGE:
1. Give yourself 5 seconds before you make your next move
Before you hit snooze, turn the TV on, choose to order out, give yourself 5 seconds to ask yourself if you are making this decision from a place of fear/procrastination.
2. Be realistic about your schedule
Even if you can ONLY commit to doing ONE THING that will get you closer to that version of yourself that you want to be, do it. Schedule in one thing to accomplish and work yourself up from there.
3. Write it out
Get clear on what you want to accomplish and write your why next to it.
Example:
From now on I want to make my meals at home 5 days out of the week → WHY? Because by making my meals at home 5 days out of the week I will:
Save money
Know exactly what I am putting into by body: eating healthier
Be more present those days I do eat out
Keep it somewhere visible, and check up on your WHY’s at least once a week.
I am starting this TODAY.
Time to practice what I preach.
Hope this helps you in the journey of becoming your best self and living your best vida.
Love, Vibra.
